By way of explanation...

I suppose what I said needs some explaining. The her I speak of is Anna. She is the love of my life. Sometimes we talk. A lot. Sometimes she is hard to find. We have been talking lately, she has even called me on the phone. I never know how to take her though, and she won't tell me. I have asked, but when I do, she goes away again. I've decided not to ask anymore.

That's all background info and I'm sure is boring anyone who is reading this silly (I MIGHT feel bad about that, if anyone besides myself was reading this, but most likely I wouldn't). What I really need to tell her is that I am a Pagan. She's very Christian, and that is a thing that she needs to know, if we are going anywhere beyond this place that we are (and I'm not really sure where we are, but still.). Oh well, maybe I will figure it all out. The thing is, that I am sure that she will never talk to me again after I tell her. Maybe that would be for the best, but it would hurt, and I would miss her (Aja taught me how to miss people). I'd get over it, of course, eventually, some day...